My Scales Are Wrong!
Friday 30 September 2011
Who would've thought Japanese food tasted good!
Why, oh why, am I having such a bad week? Okay, today wasn't so bad. I took my lunch to work but forgot it's one of the girls in the team's birthday today so we went out for lunch to a Japanese restaurant. I braved Teriyaki Beef and it wasn't too bad, very sweet. They had some weird, red sauce on the rice/veggies but aside from that it was good and I don't think it was too unhealthy. Again, I missed my morning snack so by the time I got to my friend's work to head to taekwon-do, I was super hungry. I ended up having a cup of tea and no less than four chocolate biscuits. Then for dinner I had the final container of lasagne from the freezer. I drank a decent amount of water today, so that's good at least and we had a fairly intense taekwon-do lesson and I'm very tired. I'm hoping I can be okay on the weekend with my food and exercise but I don't hold a lot of hope for Sunday when I go to the Royal Show with my brother, sister-in-law, niece and nephew. Pray for me!
Food and exercise diary - Friday 30 September 2011
Breakfast:
2 slices of buttered toast with Vegemite
Lunch:
Teriyaki Beef
Snack:
4 chocolate biscuits
Dinner:
Lasagne
Drinks:
1.4 litres of water
1 cup of hot tea with sugar
Exercise:
1 hour of taekwon-do
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2 slices of buttered toast with Vegemite
Lunch:
Teriyaki Beef
Snack:
4 chocolate biscuits
Dinner:
Lasagne
Drinks:
1.4 litres of water
1 cup of hot tea with sugar
Exercise:
1 hour of taekwon-do
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Thursday 29 September 2011
*insert witty title here*
I feel a bit crappy tonight. We didn't go for a bike ride and I made butter chicken for dinner which just tasted...grossly fattening. Not the kind of thing I want to eat on a regular basis. We've got about five containers left in the freezer but I'm going to let my husband eat them. I'm going to take one of the pasta containers tomorrow instead of having it for lunch, the pasta probably isn't much better but at least it tastes nicer! I'm really itching to ride my bike again, I'm starting to feel funky about not exercising for ages and feeling a bit crap. I also had a Pepsi Max for dinner tonight, I'm not drinking as much as I used to but I shouldn't be drinking it at all.
Food and exercise diary - Thursday 29 September 2011
Breakfast:
2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk, onions and polski
Snack:
10 raw almonds
Lunch:
Pasta E Fagioli
Dinner:
Butter chicken with rice
Drinks:
700mls of water
1 Pepsi Max can
Exercise:
None
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2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk, onions and polski
Snack:
10 raw almonds
Lunch:
Pasta E Fagioli
Dinner:
Butter chicken with rice
Drinks:
700mls of water
1 Pepsi Max can
Exercise:
None
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Wednesday 28 September 2011
Hump day again!
Not much to say today, I'm just plugging along. I'm actually struggling to eat snacks these days. I kind of just forget about food until lunchtime. Or I remember about it but only about thirty minutes from lunch so I figure why bother. It's good but also bad because I need to eat in order to lose weight so my body doesn't store the fat. In other news, we had a Master train with us a taekwon-do tonight! It was equally terrifying and exciting. He did this great kicking drill with us which was lots of fun. I'm bummed because he was at the Kalamunda class on Monday and I didn't go (I didn't know he'd be there). I hope I get the chance to train with him again in the future!
Food and exercise diary - Wednesday 28 September 2011
Breakfast:
2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk, onions and polski
Lunch:
Creamy tomato & salami fettuccini
Dinner:
Pasta E Fagioli
Drinks:
1.4 litres of water
2 cups of Milo
Exercise:
1 hour of taekwon-do
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2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk, onions and polski
Lunch:
Creamy tomato & salami fettuccini
Dinner:
Pasta E Fagioli
Drinks:
1.4 litres of water
2 cups of Milo
Exercise:
1 hour of taekwon-do
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Tuesday 27 September 2011
A bleh day
I had a bit of a down day today. I only lost 800 grams this week. I was really hoping for a bigger loss than that. My friend cheered me up, though, she was saying how proud she is of me that I'm doing this the right way. I'm not doing it to fit into a pretty dress and I'm not doing it in an unhealthy way. I guess it'll just take time. I had my final Tuesday hypnotherapy session tonight. It was good, I can't wait to have Tuesday nights back for bike riding, though! I've got my last hypnotherapy appointment two weeks from Saturday. Oh, interesting side note! I stopped at the petrol station on the way to my session and they had Reese's Peanut Butter Cups there, so I bought one and ate it.
It. Was. Gross.
I didn't expect to hate it as much as I did! I can't explain how amazing that was to me. I am the girl who ate an entire BOX of them in three days (36 packets, two peanut butter cups per packet, talk about disgusting!). Yet when I ate those peanut butter cups tonight, I could barely get through the second one. Astounding!
It. Was. Gross.
I didn't expect to hate it as much as I did! I can't explain how amazing that was to me. I am the girl who ate an entire BOX of them in three days (36 packets, two peanut butter cups per packet, talk about disgusting!). Yet when I ate those peanut butter cups tonight, I could barely get through the second one. Astounding!
Food and exercise diary - Tuesday 27 September 2011
Weight:
84.2 kgs
Loss from last week:
0.8 kgs
Total weight loss:
3.2 kgs
Breakfast:
2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk, onions and polski
Snack:
10 raw almonds
Lunch:
Tomato soup
2 slices of buttered bread
Snack:
10 raw almonds
2 Reese's Peanut Butter Cups (Gross!)
Dinner:
Creamy tomato & salami fettuccini
Drinks:
2 litres of water
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84.2 kgs
Loss from last week:
0.8 kgs
Total weight loss:
3.2 kgs
Breakfast:
2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk, onions and polski
Snack:
10 raw almonds
Lunch:
Tomato soup
2 slices of buttered bread
Snack:
10 raw almonds
2 Reese's Peanut Butter Cups (Gross!)
Dinner:
Creamy tomato & salami fettuccini
Drinks:
2 litres of water
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Monday 26 September 2011
I've got Friday on my mind
Well here we are, it's another Monday, I can't wait for the weekend! I’ve come to the conclusion that my husband is a bad influence on me! He insists on buying sweets and having them in the house so he can eat them, things we could both do without but when they’re there, I’m tempted by them. Oddly enough, I can ignore the Mars Bars sitting in the lunch room at work all day but put some M&Ms or chocolate ice cream in my way at home and I’m done for. It happened on the weekend and it happened again tonight with the ice cream he was eating when I got home. I had a few spoonfuls, in all honesty probably half a bowl to a full bowl’s worth of ice cream. I’m going to need to talk to him about this, he doesn’t need it and neither do I. I can’t blame him, though, I’m the one that ate it.
Neither of us was feeling up for our bike ride tonight, so we watched an episode of Penn & Teller: Fool Us, ate dinner and are about to go to bed. This week hasn’t been as good as last week and I think that’ll be reflected in my weight loss. If I can at least lose another kilo, I’ll be happy. It’s been a hard week what with going out to restaurants on two separate occasions. It’s a part of life, though. This has to be something that I can continue on in the future, otherwise what’s the point in losing the weight only to put it back on again like the weight I lost before the wedding!
I’ve still made leaps and bounds from where I was two weeks ago when I started this blog. I just need to look forward to the future. I’ve got my final weekly hypnotherapy session tomorrow. It’ll be good to have Tuesday nights back to myself, although I’ll miss the relaxation, it’s another day of the week that I can go for a bike ride. I’m really, really regretting not riding tonight because I’m getting a bit antsy now and wish we’d just gone earlier instead of staying in. :(
Neither of us was feeling up for our bike ride tonight, so we watched an episode of Penn & Teller: Fool Us, ate dinner and are about to go to bed. This week hasn’t been as good as last week and I think that’ll be reflected in my weight loss. If I can at least lose another kilo, I’ll be happy. It’s been a hard week what with going out to restaurants on two separate occasions. It’s a part of life, though. This has to be something that I can continue on in the future, otherwise what’s the point in losing the weight only to put it back on again like the weight I lost before the wedding!
I’ve still made leaps and bounds from where I was two weeks ago when I started this blog. I just need to look forward to the future. I’ve got my final weekly hypnotherapy session tomorrow. It’ll be good to have Tuesday nights back to myself, although I’ll miss the relaxation, it’s another day of the week that I can go for a bike ride. I’m really, really regretting not riding tonight because I’m getting a bit antsy now and wish we’d just gone earlier instead of staying in. :(
Food and exercise diary - Monday 26 September 2011
Breakfast:
2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk, onions and polski ogorki
Snack:
10 raw almonds
Drinks:
3.5 litres of water
Snack:
10 raw almonds
Dinner:
Tomato soup
2 slices of buttered bread
Dessert:
Some Connoisseur Belgian Chocolate ice cream
Exercise:
None
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2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk, onions and polski ogorki
Snack:
10 raw almonds
Drinks:
3.5 litres of water
Snack:
10 raw almonds
Dinner:
Tomato soup
2 slices of buttered bread
Dessert:
Some Connoisseur Belgian Chocolate ice cream
Exercise:
None
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Sunday 25 September 2011
We're leaving on a jet plane!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wow, what a day! We started off with a much longer bike ride than we've been doing in the past. It was a great start to the day, though. When we got home, I made breakfast which was a yummy change with poached eggs on toast and tinned tomatoes. After that, we bummed around the house for a bit and then headed to my mother-in-law's house to have lunch. We picked her up and headed to Nicholson's Bar & Grill. They do great food, massive portions and quite cheap. I got Chicken Wellington served on sweet potato mash, ate half of it and had the other half wrapped up to take home which I then had for dinner.
The big news, though, is that at lunch MIL pulled out this card which my husband said I could open. Inside was a wedding card and travel vouchers so that we can go on a proper honeymoon! I cried when she gave them to us because I'd given up the idea of us ever going on a proper honeymoon. She had always promised that she'd pay for our honeymoon so it was really fantastic. We definitely want to go skiing, it's just a matter of where. I'd really like to go to Aspen for skiing, we could go in February and it would be fantastic. Otherwise, we could go to New Zealand but it means waiting for the ski season which isn't until July-August and I don't think we can wait that long! Anyway, very exciting stuff. We want to book ASAP because neither of us is comfortable having the travel vouchers lying around because they're essentially like cash! I can't wait, though, I get to go skiing again, yippee! Even more incentive to lose the weight!
The big news, though, is that at lunch MIL pulled out this card which my husband said I could open. Inside was a wedding card and travel vouchers so that we can go on a proper honeymoon! I cried when she gave them to us because I'd given up the idea of us ever going on a proper honeymoon. She had always promised that she'd pay for our honeymoon so it was really fantastic. We definitely want to go skiing, it's just a matter of where. I'd really like to go to Aspen for skiing, we could go in February and it would be fantastic. Otherwise, we could go to New Zealand but it means waiting for the ski season which isn't until July-August and I don't think we can wait that long! Anyway, very exciting stuff. We want to book ASAP because neither of us is comfortable having the travel vouchers lying around because they're essentially like cash! I can't wait, though, I get to go skiing again, yippee! Even more incentive to lose the weight!
Food and exercise diary - Sunday 25 September 2011
Breakfast:
2 poached eggs
2 slices of buttered toast
1 can of tinned tomatoes
Lunch:
1/2 serve of Chicken Wellington
1/2 serve of sweet potato mash
Dinner:
1/2 serve of Chicken Wellington
1/2 serve of sweet potato mash
2 poached eggs
2 slices of buttered toast
1 can of tinned tomatoes
Lunch:
1/2 serve of Chicken Wellington
1/2 serve of sweet potato mash
Dinner:
1/2 serve of Chicken Wellington
1/2 serve of sweet potato mash
Drinks:
2.1 litres of water
Exercise:
15.48km bike ride
Saturday 24 September 2011
Whoops, how did that happen?
Today started out great but ended not so great. I got up early but my husband and I were both tired from taekwon-do so decided to take today off from bike riding. I went to my hair dresser appointment and became a redhead, yippee! The last thing I said to my husband before I left the house was "can you please plan this week's meals and go to the shops and buy the ingredients for me to cook with?" I got home and he'd actually done it! I brought back Subway for lunch, which was a nice, tasty treat.
That was kind of where it all went downhill. I sat down with him to watch the live telecast of the Eagles playing Geelong in the preliminary final of the AFL. The match was dismal. I made myself some fruity dream after the first quarter but neither of us could watch the bloodbath that was happening in Geelong and I ended up watching the latest episode of Glee. At this point I was alone in the home theatre room with a half-empty packet of Crispy M&Ms...which I ate. Then a bit later after Damien came in, he was finishing off the packet of Skittles (which I had managed to avoid) and I got him to give me some. A bit further on and I finally had one of the containers of lasagne that was in the freezer. It wasn't a great day but then again, it wasn't extremely horrible and still a massive improvement on the binge type days I've had in the past, although Saturdays do seem to be proving to be my weakness. I need to really make sure I don't get caught hungry on these days when I have time on my hands!
That was kind of where it all went downhill. I sat down with him to watch the live telecast of the Eagles playing Geelong in the preliminary final of the AFL. The match was dismal. I made myself some fruity dream after the first quarter but neither of us could watch the bloodbath that was happening in Geelong and I ended up watching the latest episode of Glee. At this point I was alone in the home theatre room with a half-empty packet of Crispy M&Ms...which I ate. Then a bit later after Damien came in, he was finishing off the packet of Skittles (which I had managed to avoid) and I got him to give me some. A bit further on and I finally had one of the containers of lasagne that was in the freezer. It wasn't a great day but then again, it wasn't extremely horrible and still a massive improvement on the binge type days I've had in the past, although Saturdays do seem to be proving to be my weakness. I need to really make sure I don't get caught hungry on these days when I have time on my hands!
Food and exercise diary - Saturday 24 September 2011
Breakfast:
Omelette made with 2 eggs, onion and polski ogorki
Snack:
10 raw almonds
Lunch:
6" Subway Roasted Chicken on Honey Oat with lettuce, tomato, onion, carrot, cucumber, lots of pickles and some honey mustard dressing.
Snack:
Fruity Dream made in the Thermomix
Half a packet of M&Ms
Some Skittles
Dinner:
Home-made lasagna
Drinks:
2.8 litres of water
Exercise:
None
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Omelette made with 2 eggs, onion and polski ogorki
Snack:
10 raw almonds
Lunch:
6" Subway Roasted Chicken on Honey Oat with lettuce, tomato, onion, carrot, cucumber, lots of pickles and some honey mustard dressing.
Snack:
Fruity Dream made in the Thermomix
Half a packet of M&Ms
Some Skittles
Dinner:
Home-made lasagna
Drinks:
2.8 litres of water
Exercise:
None
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Friday 23 September 2011
TGIF
Today was a fairly good day, we got to leave work early at 2pm to go have a leaving lunch for one of the girls in Accounts. She's a gorgeous girl who is sweet and I'll really miss her around the office. She gave me a bottle of apple cider to drink which was nice of her but after a few sips, I just didn't want it so in the end I gave it back to her and she drank it. We went to a chinese restaurant and I had my usual "western chinese food"! Sweet & sour pork, honey chicken and steamed rice. I didn't overeat and I felt fine about my food choices considering it's kind of hard to find chinese food that I like but is healthy. I also managed to pass on the fried ice cream...it came close, though!
Taekwon-do was good, I was late for class but it was pretty intense. We've got a Master training with us on Wednesday, so the pressure will be on. Looking forward to the weekend, come on the Eagles!
Taekwon-do was good, I was late for class but it was pretty intense. We've got a Master training with us on Wednesday, so the pressure will be on. Looking forward to the weekend, come on the Eagles!
Food and exercise diary - Friday 23 September 2011
Breakfast:
2 slices of multigrain toast with butter and Vegemite
Snack:
1 apple
Lunch:
Sweet & Sour pork
Honey chicken
Steamed rice
Dinner:
Pasta E Fagioli
Drinks:
2.1 litres of water
A few sips of apple cider
Exercise:
1 hour of taekwon-do
2 slices of multigrain toast with butter and Vegemite
Snack:
1 apple
Lunch:
Sweet & Sour pork
Honey chicken
Steamed rice
Dinner:
Pasta E Fagioli
Drinks:
2.1 litres of water
A few sips of apple cider
Exercise:
1 hour of taekwon-do
Thursday 22 September 2011
Arriba arriba!!!
Tonight we went to That Little Mexican Place for dinner to celebrate my father-in-law's birthday. The food was fantastic but I felt like a little piggy, although I didn't eat as much I would've eaten in the past. It reminded me of how I used to be, though and why I don't want to be like that again. I really need to just continue doing what I'm doing and the weight will come off naturally.
Not much else to say, it was definitely a good night out with the family and I enjoyed myself. Oh yeah, the first drink I had in two weeks that wasn't water? A margarita! I stopped at one because it's not good for weight loss to drink alcohol and also, I'm a lightweight and would've gotten trashed easily on two, the glasses were massive. Not a good look! ;)
Not much else to say, it was definitely a good night out with the family and I enjoyed myself. Oh yeah, the first drink I had in two weeks that wasn't water? A margarita! I stopped at one because it's not good for weight loss to drink alcohol and also, I'm a lightweight and would've gotten trashed easily on two, the glasses were massive. Not a good look! ;)
Food and exercise diary - Thursday 22 September 2011
Breakfast:
2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk, onions and polski ogorki
Snack:
5 almonds
Lunch:
Apricot chicken risotto
Dinner:
Blue corn chips and WAY too much Queso fundido dip!
Enchilada con Queso
Two slices of this beef in tortilla thing my husband ordered
Dessert:
1 sopapilla and a tiny bit of ice cream
1 1/2 Churros with chocolate sauce
Drinks:
2.8 litres of water
1 margarita
Exercise:
None
Side note:
Dinner for father-in-law's birthday
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2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk, onions and polski ogorki
Snack:
5 almonds
Lunch:
Apricot chicken risotto
Dinner:
Blue corn chips and WAY too much Queso fundido dip!
Enchilada con Queso
Two slices of this beef in tortilla thing my husband ordered
Dessert:
1 sopapilla and a tiny bit of ice cream
1 1/2 Churros with chocolate sauce
Drinks:
2.8 litres of water
1 margarita
Exercise:
None
Side note:
Dinner for father-in-law's birthday
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Wednesday 21 September 2011
Hump day!
Short one tonight, I’m suffering from cramps and I’m tired as anything because today was the day we ran the pay at work. I had an unexpected 1km walk today when I took the bus over to Northbridge to buy a Lunette cup, then found myself with no public transport back! My feet are killing me now, my work shoes are not made for walking! The Lunette cup is interesting and it’s something I would recommend to other women. I’d looked into getting one years ago but never did, I read about it yesterday and went and bought one today.
Aside from that, no real news. No cravings which is good. No slips which is better. I was probably not as energetic and into taekwon-do tonight as I could’ve been though, but it hurt to be on the balls of my feet. Hopefully I’ll make up for that on Friday! Tomorrow we’re going to my father-in-law’s birthday dinner at a Mexican restaurant so I’ll have to find something healthy to eat. It also means I won’t get my bike ride in tomorrow, either. Anyway, I’m sleepy so time for bed!
Aside from that, no real news. No cravings which is good. No slips which is better. I was probably not as energetic and into taekwon-do tonight as I could’ve been though, but it hurt to be on the balls of my feet. Hopefully I’ll make up for that on Friday! Tomorrow we’re going to my father-in-law’s birthday dinner at a Mexican restaurant so I’ll have to find something healthy to eat. It also means I won’t get my bike ride in tomorrow, either. Anyway, I’m sleepy so time for bed!
Food and exercise diary - Wednesday 21 September 2011
Breakfast:
2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk, onions and polski ogorki
Snack:
1 apple
Lunch:
Pasta E Fagioli
Snack:
1 apple
10 raw almonds
Dinner:
2 slices of toast with butter and Vegemite
Drinks:
2.1 litres of water
Exercise:
1 hour of taekwon-do
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2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk, onions and polski ogorki
Snack:
1 apple
Lunch:
Pasta E Fagioli
Snack:
1 apple
10 raw almonds
Dinner:
2 slices of toast with butter and Vegemite
Drinks:
2.1 litres of water
Exercise:
1 hour of taekwon-do
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Tuesday 20 September 2011
Weight loss! Result!
I know it’s probably mostly water weight but it’s still nice to see those digits going down. I have to admit…I knew, I’d lost weight…I’d been sneaky weighing myself since Saturday. I’m not going to do that again, do you know why? Saturday morning, I’d lost 2.2kgs, after my slip on Saturday night by Sunday morning I’d gone back to 1.9kgs lost, then by Monday morning I was back to 2.1kgs lost. So when I stepped on the scales this morning, instead of having a “wow! I lost 2.4kgs!” moment, I had a “yeah…it could’ve been better if it wasn’t for the 300gram weight gain between Saturday and Sunday”. Moral of the story? No more daily weighing in!
So I had my second hypnotherapy session tonight. I’d been having killer cramps all day so I was doped up on Mersyndol and feeling tired. That and a combination of knowing what was going to happen in the session really helped me and I was able to completely zone out during the session, it was extremely relaxing. I can honestly say, I don’t really have any cravings anymore. Now it’s just a matter of ploughing forward and doing what I need to do to lose weight. I have my goals and I am going to achieve them in a healthy manner.
So I had my second hypnotherapy session tonight. I’d been having killer cramps all day so I was doped up on Mersyndol and feeling tired. That and a combination of knowing what was going to happen in the session really helped me and I was able to completely zone out during the session, it was extremely relaxing. I can honestly say, I don’t really have any cravings anymore. Now it’s just a matter of ploughing forward and doing what I need to do to lose weight. I have my goals and I am going to achieve them in a healthy manner.
Food and exercise diary - Tuesday 20 September 2011
Weight:
85.0 kgs
Loss from last week:
2.4 kgs
Total weight loss:
2.4kgs
Breakfast:
2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk, onions and polski ogorki
Snack:
11 raw almonds
1 teaspoon of Vegemite
Lunch:
Spanish Beef
Snack:
2 apples
Dinner:
Pasta E Fagioli
Drinks:
2.8 litres of water
Exercise:
None
Side note:
Hypnotherapy session
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85.0 kgs
Loss from last week:
2.4 kgs
Total weight loss:
2.4kgs
Breakfast:
2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk, onions and polski ogorki
Snack:
11 raw almonds
1 teaspoon of Vegemite
Lunch:
Spanish Beef
Snack:
2 apples
Dinner:
Pasta E Fagioli
Drinks:
2.8 litres of water
Exercise:
None
Side note:
Hypnotherapy session
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Monday 19 September 2011
It's just another Manic Monday...
Does anyone actually LIKE Mondays? Just wondering if those kind of psychotic people exist lol...and I'm not counting people who have Mondays off work! I'm using "Monday" as an overarching term used for whatever day is the first day of your working week or even your working roster if you do shifts up to the mines. If you like THAT day...you're insane...or you have a great job and I'm envious of you! :P
Aaaaanyway, back to topic. Not a whole lot to report, did a short bike ride tonight instead of the long one because it looked like rain and was getting dark. Ate well, fairly pleased with myself and expecting good results from tomorrow's weigh-in. I can’t wait till my weight doesn’t start with an eight (hey, that rhymed!) but I’ve decided that my first goal is going to be 75kgs. That’s the point at which I should be able to wear my wedding and engagement rings again. Officially, the reason I don’t wear them is because I have to take them off for taekwon-do all the time, but really the reason is because my fingers are too fat to fit them on anymore! Somewhere around the 80kg mark, I think, I stopped wearing them. When I get to 75kgs, they’ll be comfortable on again. My ultimate goal is to get to 60kgs and have them resized because I’m determined to stay in that weight range once I get there!
I think I need to talk about “The Vanillin Sugar Incident”. Tonight while I was cooking dinner, I chowed my way through half a Masterfoods jar of vanillin sugar. I know what you’re thinking…WTF?!? So am I lol! I bought it when I was buying all my spices because it smells delicious and every now and again I would eat a bit of it just because of its tasty, vanilla-y goodness! Anyway…I have to be honest, I don’t feel too guilty about it but I don’t really want to repeat the experience. It was no more sugar than I would’ve eaten in a Mars bar and I didn’t have all the preservatives etc. that come with it. Next time, though, I think I should probably just wait till AFTER dinner and make myself some Fruity Dream in the Thermomix for dessert…damn, that vanillin sugar would’ve been AMAZING in the Fruity Dream recipe. Too bad it’s all gone now! Or is that a good thing?
Aaaaanyway, back to topic. Not a whole lot to report, did a short bike ride tonight instead of the long one because it looked like rain and was getting dark. Ate well, fairly pleased with myself and expecting good results from tomorrow's weigh-in. I can’t wait till my weight doesn’t start with an eight (hey, that rhymed!) but I’ve decided that my first goal is going to be 75kgs. That’s the point at which I should be able to wear my wedding and engagement rings again. Officially, the reason I don’t wear them is because I have to take them off for taekwon-do all the time, but really the reason is because my fingers are too fat to fit them on anymore! Somewhere around the 80kg mark, I think, I stopped wearing them. When I get to 75kgs, they’ll be comfortable on again. My ultimate goal is to get to 60kgs and have them resized because I’m determined to stay in that weight range once I get there!
I think I need to talk about “The Vanillin Sugar Incident”. Tonight while I was cooking dinner, I chowed my way through half a Masterfoods jar of vanillin sugar. I know what you’re thinking…WTF?!? So am I lol! I bought it when I was buying all my spices because it smells delicious and every now and again I would eat a bit of it just because of its tasty, vanilla-y goodness! Anyway…I have to be honest, I don’t feel too guilty about it but I don’t really want to repeat the experience. It was no more sugar than I would’ve eaten in a Mars bar and I didn’t have all the preservatives etc. that come with it. Next time, though, I think I should probably just wait till AFTER dinner and make myself some Fruity Dream in the Thermomix for dessert…damn, that vanillin sugar would’ve been AMAZING in the Fruity Dream recipe. Too bad it’s all gone now! Or is that a good thing?
Food and exercise diary - Monday 19 September 2011
Breakfast:
2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk, onions and polski ogorki
Snack:
1 apple
Lunch:
Baf's creamy chicken and vegetables
Snack:
10 raw almonds
Dinner:
Spanish Beef
Drinks:
2.1 litres of water
Exercise:
7.18km bike ride
2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk, onions and polski ogorki
Snack:
1 apple
Lunch:
Baf's creamy chicken and vegetables
Snack:
10 raw almonds
Dinner:
Spanish Beef
Drinks:
2.1 litres of water
Exercise:
7.18km bike ride
Sunday 18 September 2011
Lazy Sunday
Not a lot to report from today. It was raining in the morning so we couldn't go for our bike ride today. Lunch was better than I expected. I was disappointed that when I asked for the fries with my meal to be swapped out for vegetables, she said it couldn't be done! So I ordered the vegetables on the side and gave most of the chips to my husband. I kept the small, crunchy ones for myself, though! All in all, I don't think I did too badly. I avoided the caramel mud cake we had back at our place for afternoon tea and coffee after lunch, although I did eat the icing that was left on the knife after cutting everybody else a slice!
I'm kind of happy with my weekend, I don't think it was as bad as it definitely could have been. Baby steps, baby steps...changes are happening bit by bit. I'm feeling positive. :)
I'm kind of happy with my weekend, I don't think it was as bad as it definitely could have been. Baby steps, baby steps...changes are happening bit by bit. I'm feeling positive. :)
Food and exercise diary - Sunday 18 September 2011
Breakfast:
Omelette made with 2 eggs, onion and polski ogorki
Snack:
Fruity dream made in Thermomix
Lunch:
Sirloin steak with gravy, salad and steamed vegetables
8 chips
Snack:
Some sneaky caramel icing! ;)
Dinner:
Baf's creamy chicken and vegetables
Drinks:
2.1 litres of water
Exercise:
None
Side note:
Raining
Uncle's birthday at pub
Omelette made with 2 eggs, onion and polski ogorki
Snack:
Fruity dream made in Thermomix
Lunch:
Sirloin steak with gravy, salad and steamed vegetables
8 chips
Snack:
Some sneaky caramel icing! ;)
Dinner:
Baf's creamy chicken and vegetables
Drinks:
2.1 litres of water
Exercise:
None
Side note:
Raining
Uncle's birthday at pub
Saturday 17 September 2011
A slip but not a complete tumble off the wagon
Today started so well! We got up before 7am and went for a 10km bike ride which was great. Then I came home and had breakfast with the minor indulgence of a piece of buttered toast. Sorbet for my morning snack which admittedly wasn't fantastic but I didn't feel too guilty about it. Had a container of apricot chicken risotto for lunch and planned the week's meals and added everything we need to our shopping list. We went shopping and got the food, nothing bad even sneaked into our trolley!
When we got home, though, my husband had a headache and went to bed. Well, instead of making dinner for the both of us as I would have, I fried up some bacon and pineapple (surprisingly yummy, the pineapple juice caramelises in the pan) and had that for dinner. Later on I ate my way through a packet of brandied baskets and now I feel...I don't know...not guilty, per sé but certainly not fantastic. I knew the weekend would be hard but I just didn't expect myself to chow down like that.
That being said, it's a process, I've learnt from it. My first mistake was not having an afternoon snack which meant I was more likely to have cravings for bad foods. I also didn't drink enough water today, it's surprising how much easier it is to drink water when it's sitting in front of you within arm's reach at your work desk all day! I think the important thing is to continue on with what I've been doing. Honestly, that's why I've come to write this blog because I had been considering adding a container of lasagna to today's food and exercise diary! Now I know that I am strong enough to avoid it.
Tomorrow I'm going out for lunch for my uncle's birthday. We're going to a pub so it's going to be "pub food". Pray for me. Pray that I have the strength to order something decent out of what will probably be a very limited selection of food. I'm just hoping that one of the choices is some sort of grilled chicken and salad!
When we got home, though, my husband had a headache and went to bed. Well, instead of making dinner for the both of us as I would have, I fried up some bacon and pineapple (surprisingly yummy, the pineapple juice caramelises in the pan) and had that for dinner. Later on I ate my way through a packet of brandied baskets and now I feel...I don't know...not guilty, per sé but certainly not fantastic. I knew the weekend would be hard but I just didn't expect myself to chow down like that.
That being said, it's a process, I've learnt from it. My first mistake was not having an afternoon snack which meant I was more likely to have cravings for bad foods. I also didn't drink enough water today, it's surprising how much easier it is to drink water when it's sitting in front of you within arm's reach at your work desk all day! I think the important thing is to continue on with what I've been doing. Honestly, that's why I've come to write this blog because I had been considering adding a container of lasagna to today's food and exercise diary! Now I know that I am strong enough to avoid it.
Tomorrow I'm going out for lunch for my uncle's birthday. We're going to a pub so it's going to be "pub food". Pray for me. Pray that I have the strength to order something decent out of what will probably be a very limited selection of food. I'm just hoping that one of the choices is some sort of grilled chicken and salad!
Food and exercise diary - Saturday 17 September 2011
Breakfast:
2 poached eggs
1 slice of buttered toast
1 can of tinned tomatoes
Snack:
Strawberry and orange sorbet, made in Thermomix
Lunch:
Apricot chicken risotto
Dinner:
Bacon and pineapple fried in the fry pan together
Snack:
1 packet of brandied baskets
Drinks:
2.8 litres of water
Exercise:
10km bike ride
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2 poached eggs
1 slice of buttered toast
1 can of tinned tomatoes
Snack:
Strawberry and orange sorbet, made in Thermomix
Lunch:
Apricot chicken risotto
Dinner:
Bacon and pineapple fried in the fry pan together
Snack:
1 packet of brandied baskets
Drinks:
2.8 litres of water
Exercise:
10km bike ride
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Friday 16 September 2011
Thank heavens for small mercies!
Today was exactly one bucket load easier than yesterday, huzzah! I was no longer tempted by the chocolates in the kitchen and when 10am rolled around and Friday morning tea arrived I wasn't even the slightest bit interested in the party pies, sausage rolls and cakes that they had there. I could've stayed in our office but I chose to be sociable as well as test myself a little bit. I took my Tupperware container of raw almonds with me and ate them while chatting to the other staff in the office.
I have noticed that my energy is lacklustre. I think it's going to take some time for my body to adjust to this. I've been struggling to concentrate at work and then at taekwon-do tonight, I felt like a lead balloon, I could barely move and I also got a cramp in my left leg twice. Again, I think it's my body reacting to the lack of sugar when it's been in such ready supply, I wouldn't be surprised if I was having some kind of withdrawals from it! On a more positive note, my sleeping has improved already. I've been waking up before the alarm (or on the first alarm, we set about five in this house!) and am ready and raring to go.
I can't wait to go shopping tomorrow and get some food to cook a whole bunch of meals for the week, I love Subway but it's not really that great for you, although I'm definitely eating a much healthier sub than before and as far as take away goes, it's one of the few options that's halfway decent really. I think I'm going to make some sorbets in the Thermomix when I want dessert, we have ice readily on hand and it only uses a little bit of sugar so it could be a solution to any "sweet" cravings I get this weekend!
Fingers crossed it all goes well when it's the weekend and I have a whole bunch of spare time on my hands!
N.B. I've just re-read this blog after posting and it feels like a bunch of random thoughts with no segue between them. I apologise, I'm really tired!
I have noticed that my energy is lacklustre. I think it's going to take some time for my body to adjust to this. I've been struggling to concentrate at work and then at taekwon-do tonight, I felt like a lead balloon, I could barely move and I also got a cramp in my left leg twice. Again, I think it's my body reacting to the lack of sugar when it's been in such ready supply, I wouldn't be surprised if I was having some kind of withdrawals from it! On a more positive note, my sleeping has improved already. I've been waking up before the alarm (or on the first alarm, we set about five in this house!) and am ready and raring to go.
I can't wait to go shopping tomorrow and get some food to cook a whole bunch of meals for the week, I love Subway but it's not really that great for you, although I'm definitely eating a much healthier sub than before and as far as take away goes, it's one of the few options that's halfway decent really. I think I'm going to make some sorbets in the Thermomix when I want dessert, we have ice readily on hand and it only uses a little bit of sugar so it could be a solution to any "sweet" cravings I get this weekend!
Fingers crossed it all goes well when it's the weekend and I have a whole bunch of spare time on my hands!
N.B. I've just re-read this blog after posting and it feels like a bunch of random thoughts with no segue between them. I apologise, I'm really tired!
Food and exercise diary - Friday 16 September 2011
Breakfast:
2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk and salt
Snack:
10 raw almonds
Lunch:
6" Subway Roasted Chicken on Honey Oat with lettuce, tomato, onion, carrot, cucumber, lots of pickles and some honey mustard dressing.
Snack:
1 apple
Dinner:
1 bowl of apricot chicken risotto
Exercise:
1 hour of taekwon-do
Drinks:
2.8 litres of water
1/2 cup of Hi-Lo milk
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2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk and salt
Snack:
10 raw almonds
Lunch:
6" Subway Roasted Chicken on Honey Oat with lettuce, tomato, onion, carrot, cucumber, lots of pickles and some honey mustard dressing.
Snack:
1 apple
Dinner:
1 bowl of apricot chicken risotto
Exercise:
1 hour of taekwon-do
Drinks:
2.8 litres of water
1/2 cup of Hi-Lo milk
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Thursday 15 September 2011
How do I love chocolate? Let me count the ways.
So today was possibly harder than yesterday. To explain, let me insert here an email I sent to my friend during the day today.
If you look at my food and exercise diary, you'll see that I didn't eat the chocolate (hooray!) but it was hard. I think this is just something that I will need to get used to. We're creating new habits and breaking the old ones was never going to be an easy task. Subway again for dinner tonight, I need to go food shopping badly, I'll do that on Saturday. I've taken chicken out to make apricot chicken risotto tomorrow night. It should be good.
Subject: I still want chocolate...
...I'm going to mention that to her on Tuesday so she can work that into our next session. I mean, obviously what she did is working because I haven't eaten any but I am, you know...craving it big time. I want to eat chocolate with every fibre of my being but I also don't want to eat it. There are these charity chocolates in the lunchroom and for the last couple of weeks I've been buying them on a daily basis. There are packets of Maltesers, M&Ms and Mars Bars. Right now there's Mars Bars and Maltesers in there (I finally caved and peeked earlier). Unfortunately, they're right by the water fountain where I fill up my water bottle so I walk past them ALL THE TIME! Every time I walk past, I think "I could put that on my food diary, nobody would begrudge me a Mars Bar, right?" but then I think "you'll feel totally crap and you don't REALLY want it" and walk away.
If you look at my food and exercise diary, you'll see that I didn't eat the chocolate (hooray!) but it was hard. I think this is just something that I will need to get used to. We're creating new habits and breaking the old ones was never going to be an easy task. Subway again for dinner tonight, I need to go food shopping badly, I'll do that on Saturday. I've taken chicken out to make apricot chicken risotto tomorrow night. It should be good.
Food and exercise diary - Thursday 15 September 2011
Breakfast:
2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk and salt
Snack:
10 raw almonds
Lunch:
1 container of Hungarian Goulash
Snack:
10 raw almonds
Dinner:
6" Subway Roasted Chicken on Honey Oat with lettuce, tomato, onion, carrot, cucumber, lots of pickles and some honey mustard dressing.
Drinks:
3.3 litres of water
Exercise:
7.13km bike ride
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2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk and salt
Snack:
10 raw almonds
Lunch:
1 container of Hungarian Goulash
Snack:
10 raw almonds
Dinner:
6" Subway Roasted Chicken on Honey Oat with lettuce, tomato, onion, carrot, cucumber, lots of pickles and some honey mustard dressing.
Drinks:
3.3 litres of water
Exercise:
7.13km bike ride
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Wednesday 14 September 2011
A slight struggle
So today was my first day after hypnotherapy. I'll admit, it was more of a struggle than I expected it to be. I was pleased when I easily turned down chocolate cake at work this morning but I was surprised by how much time I spent still thinking about food. Mostly it was about the hypnotherapy session and what we'd planned for my eating. I was a bit disappointed in myself for having Subway for lunch. I had been planning to eat the Hungarian Goulash I'd taken to work but when I saw one of the managers eating Subway, I got it in my head to have that. It was a much healthier sub than in the past (my old sub was a foot long chicken & bacon ranch with double cheese and extra ranch dressing) but it still disappointed me that I caved to a "craving" so to speak.
I guess that's why you don't stop at one session, next week I'll mention these struggles and she'll build it into our next session to empower me to do better. Coming home from taekwon-do tonight was a touchy subject for us, Damien had lasagna from the freezer for lunch and I haven't had a chance to cook any more meals. I also didn't want to eat lasagna for dinner, I suggested Subway but in the end when he dropped me off at my car (I parked at the train station because I was running late this morning), I told him that if he didn't want Subway, I was happy to eat what was at home and he could get what he liked.
I ate the remainder of the Beef Stroganoff from last night but there was really not a lot left at all. Then I came the closest to caving all day. I considered the brandied baskets in the cupboard, eating one of the lasagnas from the freezer and at one point even pulled out the last mint Cornetto from the freezer and started to open it before putting it back. In the end I drank some more water and had a slice of toast with Vegemite.
Plan for tomorrow, bike ride and get some fresh veggies in the house to cook some good meals in the Thermomix!
I guess that's why you don't stop at one session, next week I'll mention these struggles and she'll build it into our next session to empower me to do better. Coming home from taekwon-do tonight was a touchy subject for us, Damien had lasagna from the freezer for lunch and I haven't had a chance to cook any more meals. I also didn't want to eat lasagna for dinner, I suggested Subway but in the end when he dropped me off at my car (I parked at the train station because I was running late this morning), I told him that if he didn't want Subway, I was happy to eat what was at home and he could get what he liked.
I ate the remainder of the Beef Stroganoff from last night but there was really not a lot left at all. Then I came the closest to caving all day. I considered the brandied baskets in the cupboard, eating one of the lasagnas from the freezer and at one point even pulled out the last mint Cornetto from the freezer and started to open it before putting it back. In the end I drank some more water and had a slice of toast with Vegemite.
Plan for tomorrow, bike ride and get some fresh veggies in the house to cook some good meals in the Thermomix!
Food and exercise diary - Wednesday 14 September 2011
Breakfast:
2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk
Snack:
A small slice of vegetable quiche (no pastry), given to me by a girl at work
Lunch:
6" Subway Roasted Chicken on Honey Oat with lettuce, tomato, onion, carrot, cucumber, lots of pickles and some honey mustard dressing.
Snack:
10 raw almonds
1 apple
Dinner:
Half a container of Beef Stroganoff
1 slice of toast with butter and Vegemite
Drinks:
2.8 litres of water
Exercise:
1 hour of taekwon-do
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2 eggs, scrambled in the microwave with a little milk
Snack:
A small slice of vegetable quiche (no pastry), given to me by a girl at work
Lunch:
6" Subway Roasted Chicken on Honey Oat with lettuce, tomato, onion, carrot, cucumber, lots of pickles and some honey mustard dressing.
Snack:
10 raw almonds
1 apple
Dinner:
Half a container of Beef Stroganoff
1 slice of toast with butter and Vegemite
Drinks:
2.8 litres of water
Exercise:
1 hour of taekwon-do
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Tuesday 13 September 2011
First impressions of hypnotherapy
Initially, I was just outright elated when my hypnotherapy session ended. The feeling of well being was amazing. It's funny, I'm struggling to actually explain it. Basically, when I got there, we discussed my weight issues and what I like to eat and what foods have caused me to put on the weight and I filled out a form. Marie went over what would happen in the session.
Then we did an exercise where I had to visualise all the foods that caused me to gain weight and describe the picture to her, then I opened my eyes and this time told her what would be the one thing in the world that I would never eat (fish eyes). I closed my eyes again, visualised the fish eyes in the shapes of the things I liked to eat and described that picture before opening my eyes. Then I closed my eyes again and visualised the first picture but this time she told me to picture it with the same kind of features as the fish eyes ("black and white, dim, a feeling of nausea in my stomach").
After that we got on to the actual hypnotherapy. I found it a bit uncomfortable because I find that as soon as I have to be still for any period of time, I get itchy in random places around my body. Afterwards, she told me that some people are just like that and they move around during the session. I don't think that I was any less "under" than someone else. To describe the feeling, I would have to say that it was very, very relaxing, my closest experience to it would be when you're lying in bed in the morning, just before you wake up. You're conscious but still asleep, sometimes you don't even realise it until after you wake up. You think to yourself "oh yeah, I was half awake", other times you'll be fully conscious but still enjoying the blanket of sleep over you. I don't know if that makes any sense but it's the closest I can get to explaining the feeling!
The most unusual thing to come from it? Just this morning I had told someone that I would "never forgive" a friend who had done wrong by me in the past but in this one session, I came out of it having forgiven her. I won't be seeking a friendship with her by any means but I have forgiven her for what she did to me which came as a total surprise to me. Not exactly what I went there for but dropping those negative feelings was like lifting a weight from my shoulders.
As for the nitty gritty of weight loss, we discussed good eating habits and having a desire to exercise. Time will tell as to whether these have sunk in but when I went to the freezer tonight, I chose the protein-full Beef Stroganoff over the carbo-loaded Lasagna!
Then we did an exercise where I had to visualise all the foods that caused me to gain weight and describe the picture to her, then I opened my eyes and this time told her what would be the one thing in the world that I would never eat (fish eyes). I closed my eyes again, visualised the fish eyes in the shapes of the things I liked to eat and described that picture before opening my eyes. Then I closed my eyes again and visualised the first picture but this time she told me to picture it with the same kind of features as the fish eyes ("black and white, dim, a feeling of nausea in my stomach").
After that we got on to the actual hypnotherapy. I found it a bit uncomfortable because I find that as soon as I have to be still for any period of time, I get itchy in random places around my body. Afterwards, she told me that some people are just like that and they move around during the session. I don't think that I was any less "under" than someone else. To describe the feeling, I would have to say that it was very, very relaxing, my closest experience to it would be when you're lying in bed in the morning, just before you wake up. You're conscious but still asleep, sometimes you don't even realise it until after you wake up. You think to yourself "oh yeah, I was half awake", other times you'll be fully conscious but still enjoying the blanket of sleep over you. I don't know if that makes any sense but it's the closest I can get to explaining the feeling!
The most unusual thing to come from it? Just this morning I had told someone that I would "never forgive" a friend who had done wrong by me in the past but in this one session, I came out of it having forgiven her. I won't be seeking a friendship with her by any means but I have forgiven her for what she did to me which came as a total surprise to me. Not exactly what I went there for but dropping those negative feelings was like lifting a weight from my shoulders.
As for the nitty gritty of weight loss, we discussed good eating habits and having a desire to exercise. Time will tell as to whether these have sunk in but when I went to the freezer tonight, I chose the protein-full Beef Stroganoff over the carbo-loaded Lasagna!
Food and exercise diary - Tuesday 13 September 2011
Weight: 87.4kgs (192.68lbs)
Breakfast:
1 beef and onion pie with sauce
Snack:
3 Cadbury Twisted bars
1 Lion bar
Lunch:
Chips and gravy (with salt and vinegar)
Dinner:
1/2 a container of beef stroganoff
Drinks:
1.5 litres of water
1 600ml Pepsi Max
Exercise:
None
Side note:
Hypnotherapy session
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Breakfast:
1 beef and onion pie with sauce
Snack:
3 Cadbury Twisted bars
1 Lion bar
Lunch:
Chips and gravy (with salt and vinegar)
Dinner:
1/2 a container of beef stroganoff
Drinks:
1.5 litres of water
1 600ml Pepsi Max
Exercise:
None
Side note:
Hypnotherapy session
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Hypnobabble?
As I write my first post on this blog, I am heading home from work on the way to my first hypnotherapy appointment. I should explain, I'm currently about 25kgs (around 50lbs) overweight. I know how to lose weight, I do, I've even done it in the past. I need to eat healthy and exercise.
I'm failing at both.
After years of dieting sporadically, losing weight just as sporadically and generally hating myself, I've decided that enough is enough. Now maybe you're thinking that I should just be a big girl (errrr, not literally!) and get myself some bloody willpower and you're probably right but at this point if there's something that will help me to get on track, I'll do it! I want to get my mind on board with my body. I know that it will still involve hard work but if it's even a tiny bit easier then that'll be great!
I researched hypnotherapy before committing to this and I've heard quite a lot of positive feedback from people who have used it to cut back on sweets and quit smoking. Even so, it took me awhile before I had the nerve to actually call and book an appointment last week! I haven't told many people about it either because I've tried so many things in the past to lose weight that I don't want to have any pressure on me about whether it does or doesn't work. Since booking the appointment I've been eagerly awaiting today and, I'll admit, scoffing my face as much as I can since hopefully I won't be eating as much crap in the future.
Is that bad? I know it is but I couldn't help myself, I'm an emotional eater, I'm also a bored eater, an amused eater, a sleepy eater and a full of energy eater! I mean, I don't think about food that often, only when I'm awake...and sometimes when I'm dreaming!
When it comes to exercising off the excess calories I intake, I'm slightly lax as well. I do taekwon-do twice a week (I just graded to blue belt and need to increase this to three times a week) and recently my husband and myself have started riding our bikes after work...okay...I've done this once so far!
I've tried so many exercise regimes on the past, you wouldn't believe it. Or maybe you would? I think the longest I kept one going was about three weeks before it all became "too hard basket" and I gave up.
Anyway, I've almost reached my train station so I'd better wrap this up. I'll update later with my impressions of the first appointment.
I'm going to do a food diary each day as well but I'll keep that in a separate entry. :)
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I'm failing at both.
After years of dieting sporadically, losing weight just as sporadically and generally hating myself, I've decided that enough is enough. Now maybe you're thinking that I should just be a big girl (errrr, not literally!) and get myself some bloody willpower and you're probably right but at this point if there's something that will help me to get on track, I'll do it! I want to get my mind on board with my body. I know that it will still involve hard work but if it's even a tiny bit easier then that'll be great!
I researched hypnotherapy before committing to this and I've heard quite a lot of positive feedback from people who have used it to cut back on sweets and quit smoking. Even so, it took me awhile before I had the nerve to actually call and book an appointment last week! I haven't told many people about it either because I've tried so many things in the past to lose weight that I don't want to have any pressure on me about whether it does or doesn't work. Since booking the appointment I've been eagerly awaiting today and, I'll admit, scoffing my face as much as I can since hopefully I won't be eating as much crap in the future.
Is that bad? I know it is but I couldn't help myself, I'm an emotional eater, I'm also a bored eater, an amused eater, a sleepy eater and a full of energy eater! I mean, I don't think about food that often, only when I'm awake...and sometimes when I'm dreaming!
When it comes to exercising off the excess calories I intake, I'm slightly lax as well. I do taekwon-do twice a week (I just graded to blue belt and need to increase this to three times a week) and recently my husband and myself have started riding our bikes after work...okay...I've done this once so far!
I've tried so many exercise regimes on the past, you wouldn't believe it. Or maybe you would? I think the longest I kept one going was about three weeks before it all became "too hard basket" and I gave up.
Anyway, I've almost reached my train station so I'd better wrap this up. I'll update later with my impressions of the first appointment.
I'm going to do a food diary each day as well but I'll keep that in a separate entry. :)
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